Money not enof....

It is very hard to accept that suddenly u r broke, or out of cash when u were pampered.
It was started when my dad's company closed, and my dad have no job at all. He's 50, and when he planned to go Cambodia to work, suddenly there were wars. Lucky us, if not we have lost our dad.
Financial were stable for the past few months until recently money become our family problem. I regret, Regret of misused my credit cards, and make me owed them money. Electricity, phone, and water bills paid by us, meanwhile, dad paid the house rents, and other home usages. But how long it can stand? I am afraid that when tat time arrive, i cannot support my family at all.
At this time, I felt very useless, and so does my dad (That is wat i thinking rite now). I did not earn enough to support 6 members of the family, and pay off all the high-usage bills. I begun to feel stress, and I am wondering how long I can support like this?
Even though, I haven't started to pay neither for house rents nor astro bills, I already started to think where my monies should go to? My credit cards? Insurance? Phones? House? Or family?
Wid my current pay, I don't think it wud be enof to pay off debts even if I work more than 2 jobs perday.
Money always not enough. I hate my family especially my dad. He seem like didnt realized that we are not as same as last time, when we can have everything in home. He always thought that I have more money to spend, but can't I pampered myself with the money that I earned? Although, when sometimes I get upset/angry, I kept remember myself that my dad have suffered 30 more years to keeping us alive until now, and is this way we going to treat him?
No matter wat, we are still family. No matter how I hate being in this family, this already are my family, and I will stick with it no matter wat.
How I wish money rain down from sky.... (Stupid wish it is.. =< )